Those of you who frequent the boards may have already heard, but I’ve decided it’s time for me to move on. I don’t want to turn this into some hand-wringing, overwritten farewell. I know very well that I’m not some hotshot critic who set the web on fire, so trust me — I know this isn’t a big deal.
But it would feel wrong to stop writing for a site I’ve been reading for nearly fifteen years without some parting sentiment.
So why am I leaving? In short, I’ve fallen out of love with film journalism and criticism in a big way. I’m giving it up.
Entertainment journalism is fueled by leaks, gossip, rumors, speculation, fabrication, and shitty morals. Many writers of entertainment journalism (I include myself in this, though I am not a journalist) have a poor understanding of the filmmaking business. Journalists and bloggers often inhabit an echo chamber of misinformation.
When I started reading pieces that completely screwed the pooch on widely respected movie blogs, I began to wonder… is there even a point to doing it better? Hell, even venerable trade publications like The Hollywood Reporter have published shitty gossip pieces on Josh Trank and his dogs. I’m not above it, either. I’ve said plenty of dumb and ignorant stuff in my news stories. And if I’m going to be ignorant, I’d at least like to be ignorant quietly.
I won’t lie to you — as silly as it may seem, I’ve had fantasies of becoming a widely respected critical voice in our community. Maybe I could’ve turned this into a career if I really committed to it. But I’m nearing thirty, and a different passion has been gnawing away at me for the past fifteen years. It’s time I committed to it.
While I may not have been here long, CHUD has made me a better writer. I still might not even be a good writer, but I’m definitely better. I’m physically and mentally healthier than I’ve been in years. I’ve met some really great folks here — trustworthy true collaborators — with whom I’ll stay in contact.
Before I go, I’d like to thank Nick Nunziata, Eileen Bolender, Jeremy Butler, and Andrea Rothe for offering me the opportunity to write, guiding me, and trusting me with as much as they have. I’d like to thank all the writers who wrote tag team reviews with me, and all the writers who wrote editorials, columns, DVD reviews, and news stories under my admittedly loose guidance. I’d like to thank the diehard readers and forum users. And I’d like to thank each and every one of you who took the time to read my writing, even if you hated every word.
I sincerely wish nothing but the best for CHUD, its crew, and its readers. I’ll see you around.