Its funny how life works at times. That sometimes you just look at things and think their insignificant, and just pass them off as just tiny text from people you most likely know.
Yeah I'm a cunt.
Sitting here, typing on computer, I come to a message board, which I rarely do on the fact I never see the people face to face, because of a mutual love of movies. My god they are entertaining. They take us to worlds not of our own, and allow our minds not to be shut off, but to be engaged on some sort of level. It was this level that lead me to really break apart film making as a process. Just looking at the magic, one always wondered what the tricks were. It didn't help that the internet and DVDs came to be at just the right time to nurture an supposed understanding of film.
Another hobby thoughout my youth was Batman. Yeah I had my own website detailing all that was Batman 5 at the time. I just was thrilled with Batman Begins and followed The Dark Knight. The sad news of Heath dying oddly effected me. I didn't know him personally, but he did convince me that he was a good actor on the rise and may have had a breakout performance coming soon. The Dark Knight trailers gave me believe that he was going to put Nicholson to shame. Then you know what happened.
In the mean time, I started to work on my own version of Terminator 3.
Okay lets just jump to the meat, enough bull shit.
Shitting on someone's own work is wrong. Criticizing is okay. You offer points and what not. Taking it upon yourself to take their work, and make it in your own image is wrong. I finished the edit, its good, I had people watch it, it was good, but then something happened. I got credit and respect for it. The thing is, I suddenly realized, did I pay millions to crash a crane through a building? Did I put in the man hours to even just plan it. No! I really did get a lot of credit, but I realized, I didn't deserve it.
Slightly before that, I had the fucked up mind to really critique the new CHUD look by mentioning a total redesign of the site in my own eyes. Fuck I'm a loser for doing that. These guys work so fucking hard, and I really should give them a break. CHUD is more than just a web site, but the people who make it up.
I'd like to add there were somethings going on in my personal life that were going fucky, but those have been delt with and will not be mentioned here. I have a cocky attitude, I do. I don't think that will go away, but it went to insulting, and that is something it shouldn't have. Today that anger pretty much culminated and now a moment of clairity (oddly I'm trying to quit smoking, but eh) made me realize what a cunt I've been. Chris Nolan's moving letter also helped.
So I hope to contribute again, and be pretty vocal, but with 86% less cunt like attitude.
Yeah I'm a cunt.
Sitting here, typing on computer, I come to a message board, which I rarely do on the fact I never see the people face to face, because of a mutual love of movies. My god they are entertaining. They take us to worlds not of our own, and allow our minds not to be shut off, but to be engaged on some sort of level. It was this level that lead me to really break apart film making as a process. Just looking at the magic, one always wondered what the tricks were. It didn't help that the internet and DVDs came to be at just the right time to nurture an supposed understanding of film.
Another hobby thoughout my youth was Batman. Yeah I had my own website detailing all that was Batman 5 at the time. I just was thrilled with Batman Begins and followed The Dark Knight. The sad news of Heath dying oddly effected me. I didn't know him personally, but he did convince me that he was a good actor on the rise and may have had a breakout performance coming soon. The Dark Knight trailers gave me believe that he was going to put Nicholson to shame. Then you know what happened.
In the mean time, I started to work on my own version of Terminator 3.
Okay lets just jump to the meat, enough bull shit.
Shitting on someone's own work is wrong. Criticizing is okay. You offer points and what not. Taking it upon yourself to take their work, and make it in your own image is wrong. I finished the edit, its good, I had people watch it, it was good, but then something happened. I got credit and respect for it. The thing is, I suddenly realized, did I pay millions to crash a crane through a building? Did I put in the man hours to even just plan it. No! I really did get a lot of credit, but I realized, I didn't deserve it.
Slightly before that, I had the fucked up mind to really critique the new CHUD look by mentioning a total redesign of the site in my own eyes. Fuck I'm a loser for doing that. These guys work so fucking hard, and I really should give them a break. CHUD is more than just a web site, but the people who make it up.
I'd like to add there were somethings going on in my personal life that were going fucky, but those have been delt with and will not be mentioned here. I have a cocky attitude, I do. I don't think that will go away, but it went to insulting, and that is something it shouldn't have. Today that anger pretty much culminated and now a moment of clairity (oddly I'm trying to quit smoking, but eh) made me realize what a cunt I've been. Chris Nolan's moving letter also helped.
So I hope to contribute again, and be pretty vocal, but with 86% less cunt like attitude.
