one thing that people seem to take for granted regarding pills is that each med will have a different effect on each person. What might work wonders for me might make you feel awful. that's why I think it's extremely important to
a) have a doctor who knows his shit about medication. my first psychiatrist, the man talked to me for LITERALLY 2 minutes and prescribed me some EXTREMELY rough meds - after barely talking to me, needless to say, they did quite the number on me. I never saw him again and went to someone who actually cared about me and my needs. my current shrink, for example, in a move that touched me immensely, was supposed to be on holiday next week, but cancelled his trip so he could see me again. that's a good doctor in my eyes.
b) ALWAYS, ALWAYS be honest about the effects the meds are having on you, good, bad, or none. I've been on medication on/off for about 5 years and I know that it's an EXTREMELY particular issue, because every person has a different reaction to most meds. so once again, I ask you to PLEASE go to a doctor you trust and ask him about these side effects. if he's worth his salt (and most of them, in all honesty, are) he'll explain what's happening to you and then change your medical treatment to something that's more appropriate to your needs.
I know I was lucky... save for the first one, I've always had wonderful experiences with shrinks. that's not always the case, but if you ever feel ANY discomfort regarding the effects of your meds, tell your doctor. most of them not only will know what to do, but will honestly have your best interest in mind.
I'm starting my changes in my meds tonight. but I had a wonderful night with some amazing surprises... my best friend, who is pretty much a brother, told me he was stuck in Paris earlier today, while I told him about my depression. then he showed up at the place I was. it was a beautiful moment. this man is my brother, pretty much, and I hadn't seen him for about 3 months. I know I've been the biggest debbie downer in these boards as of late, but tonight I thought "shit, things really DO get better". and they do. then they get worse. then they get better again. I'm not hopeless anymore. and I know that I owe the vast majority of these feelings to you guys. so I thank you all, with complete and utter honesty and from the absolute center of my heart for the amazing and indispensable support you have all given me. If I'm able to help any of you guys in any way, just let me know. not because I owe you all this much (I do), but because after all this I like to think we're FRIENDS, and I am willing to do anything for my friends. btw, today was "friend day" here in Brazil, so I have to thank you all for being an absolutely needed solace during my rough times.
hopefully, better times are coming for all of us.
cheers, and once again, my sincerest thanks to all in this thread.