Originally Posted by Farsight
Yeah, it's just not really possible to fully understand the mindset of someone in that severe a state of depression. The closest I can come is to imagine beng in the late stages of a terminal disease, with no hope of a cure and no way to manage the pain.
I still can't imagine myself giving up, but in that mindset, I can see the logic in giving one last performance and going out on your own terms.
People who harm others deserve condemnation. People who harm themselves deserve pity.
This. So much this.
For all we know, he was so distraught that he felt like he might actually endanger his kids. It's not hard to have that fear. You make bad choices and do fucked up shit all the time, whose to say your next fuckup isn't leaving your kid in a locked car in Summer.
Suicide for many isn't a cowardly act, it's the last and fatal symptom of a terrible disease that even in 2017 still isn't widely accepted as a disease.
People with these emotional disorders live in a different world than you do. It's lonely and scary, and suicide seems like a plausible best of bad options choice.
Obviously this is an area of which I'm unfortunately intimately familiar. For my own struggles, and the two friends I had that took their own lives. One a 19 year old lovely girl who was an honors student, beautiful (developed early, knockout figure by the time she was 14), sweet, intensely passionate about geeky stuff in a age when that was still "lame" in the mainstream.. accepted to all the colleges she applied for and had a loving WASP family. Didn't matter. Her experience of life was that of despair and always second guessing herself. Poor thing 😭
(Wanted to quote only the last part, but mobile is being pissy about it)