Ever contemplated suicide?

Depends what you mean by contemplated. I think we all get flashes of these ideas curious of what would happen, much the same way we wonder what would happen if we kicked co-workers in teeth, faked our own deaths or shot up a bank. Most of keep these ideas in check with our egos.

But seriously? Taken inventory of my life and seriously thought I'd be better off dead? Never.

On the other hand I have often thought of how nice it would be to give everything up and get a fresh start somewhere, but I think that's a romantic notion that many have. It may sound naive and optimistic, but I think if you are a creative person that has hit a perceived bottom then that is always an option - and a better one than doing yourself in.

It's not worth valuing your goals over your life. Your goals can change. You only got one shot at the rest.

I would never, ever attempt this. Even when I am fucking depressed as hell, suicide would be the last thing on my mind. If I do, it will bring me more suffering than I could imagine. Not that I am deeply religious, but what are you seriously going to find if you do kill yourself?

I have often thought about just leaving and starting over. I've already done it once and ended up in Las Vegas, the city where everyone goes to 'start over' apparantly.

Suicide just never seemed to be an option. Life sucks, and we do seem to go from bad moment to bad moment, but there is always something worth living for. I can relate to the feeling of having your dream pulled out from under you, Stormin. I wish you luck in finishing your work.

But we all have broken and unrealized dreams. It, like any disappointment will become less vivid in your mind when and if you're able to re-prioritize.

As for your your friends and family, I obviously don't know any of them personally, but if they're like any decent friends and family, they'll care more about your health and overall happiness than some perceived failure.

I thought about it often during the hell that was high school.

Glad I never did it.

Don't tell anyone okay?

I've contemplated the void this planet would have to endure if I were dead.

Honestly, no. I'm a fairly independent guy and have always been able to keep myself happy and entertained. The obligitory high school heartbreaks have left me sick at times, but hell, there's a lot to like about being alive on this planet, and there's no guarantee of an afterlife. So you better use this one up pretty good.

I don't man, it's okay, people need to see stuff like this, even if they don't understand or they make fun. They need to learn that there are people out there who aren't always happy with everything, or pretend to be, and maybe they need to be nicer, kinder, to people in person, on a day to day basis.

I contemplate it all the time, but I rarely have I ever thought about it seriously. I just happen to have an overactive and morbid imagination.

everyone considers it at one point or another in their life. its human nature; the ultimate expression of free will- even just the thought.

i wish you the best of luck on your film. create your legacy.

Can't say I've ever contemplated it, at least not that I can recall. I'm way to full of myself to want to die.

I have the strange ability to always be content with my life no matter how good or shitty it may be. And that is probably why I tend to get stuck in ruts for awhile.

I'd imagine its a healthy thing to think about, nothing out of the ordinary. But don't let the thought or thoughts of it bog you down. And good luck hammering out that movie.

I've thought about it many times, and have even come close to actually doing it a few times. I think the only reason that I haven't done it is because of my family. I'm sorry that I can't help you out more. Good luck with the movie.

As for the suicide thing, I think most(if not all) people have pondered it at one time or another. I know I sure have. I'm freaked out by mortality enough as it is, so rushing things isn't in my best interest. I'm not religious or anything either, not sure if that would help or hinder any suicidal thoughts. But really, yeah, it's pretty stupid.

I've talked more people out of it than I'd like to count too, so that doesn't improve my opinion of suicide. The worst thing about talking to someone who wants to kill themselves is that you never truly know if they're serious, or it's just a scheme to get attention. Either way, you never really know, so you still have to try and help. You don't want that shit on your concience(sp?).


On to your film though, 90-95% completion is pretty far. Look at the positives. If for whatever reason it absolutely can't be finished, can it be edited to make a slightly shorter feature? Or trimmed down to a mean and lean short? Either way, it would be a great calling card to try to get funding for another film. Keep at it, I'm sure you'll be able to find a creative solution to this.
I helped two of my friends with a movie around 7 years ago, and we got to the 50% mark roundabouts before shit fell through. Thousands and thousands of dollars were poured into it... BUT, it was the best film school money could buy. We learned so much.
Remember, Tarantino's first movie was never completed. Peter Jackson took 4 years to finish his first one. There are countless stories like this(David Lynch is another, I believe). Don't give up yet(I mean on the film, but yeah, your life too).

That reminds me, how long did it take Raimi to complete "The Evil Dead"?

Fellow Pittsburgher took the words outta my mouth. Sometimes it's fun to imagine how people would react to your death, but I've never been curious enough to really entertain the idea. If my life ever sucked enough to not care about it, I'd just become a wino.

I've gone as far as held a loaded gun in my hand. Was an experience I'm glad to have had, as my friend talked me out of it by bemoaning the amount of paperwork cops would make her file afterwards.

I'm glad I didn't do it. And neither should you. Think of all the things you haven't seen. I haven't seen a guy put his fist up a girls ass and lift her high enough to punch out villains. Until I do, I'm alive.

PLease don't ever take a drastic step that can't be fixed.


But if you do, put your suicide note on the boards because that shit is always funny.

Watch out man, Agent Helix is probably on google right now...

A link only for people who are serious about suicide:

http://www.myspace.com

Who hasn't, in some way or another?

Personally, the fear of death is far too great a motivator to ever seriously consider it.

Good luck to you, my friend(s).

Goddamn, wade beat me to it.

No matter how much life sucks you only get one shot at it. Whatever else happens next you can't go back once you have done it.

So don't do anything rash.

It's something that flashes through peoples minds every now and then but that's all it is, a flash, you get on with your life. I certainly would never, I enjoy my life too much and unless there's a valid reason why you'd conceivably do it, say you're in extreme agony or something it'd just be pointless.

Maybe I've been listening to 'Quadrophenia' too much.

Contemplated, but never attempted.

I contemplate my own funeral a lot. I hope it's standing room only, packed with crying mourners. And I desperately want someone to hurl themselves on my coffin as it lowers into the grave. I'll probably hire someone to do that ahead of time just in case.

I do that as well. I also want to make a funeral video and use a dissolve to make it look like I'm a ghost and I disappear. Just to freak some people out.

But Stormin', I don't know if this is going to help but my wife is one of these "Everything for a reason" people. No matter how much we struggle financially or otherwise she just sits there all relaxed and says "It'll all work out...it always does." And she's right (and it's also good that she's there because I'm really hight strung and have a tendency to freak out when shit gets rough). The thing I'm saying is just forget about this for while. The only way this movie can be a failure is if you die before you complete it (self-inflicted or otherwise). Take a hiatus. Put it aside and move on with your life. Don't forget about it, don't abandon it, but don't focus on it. And, if my wife's track record is any indication, something's gonna come along that'll get your film finished. That's my 2 cents.

Sometime I get angry that I won't be able to experience my own funeral.
Yeah Ill be there all stiff and such but I want to see what's going on too.

Maybe some awesome presentation. And there has to be lots of cursing.
Lots.

And I should write a letter to be read then that points out what I hated about everyone in my family. And just for fun, I should be buried with a Glock.

But I like Butler's "Ghost" idea.

I would totally love to fake my death at some point.

I'll help you out. $50,000 -- in cash. You'll get the performance of a LIFETIME.

Why pay you? Tell him it's a girl in there, and fabfunk will do it for free!

Damn you for making me laugh out loud at work, Helix...

See...now that just proves that flogging a dead horse is in fact, hilarious.

O.k., maybe reminding fab about the dead pornstar thing was funny for the last 800 posts, but its dead. Imagine if after EVERY post Slater made someone followed it with "Yeah, but remember when the cat bit your dick?". The cat biting the dick was awesome, but everything has it limit, and so goes fab and the dead chicks. Granted, it's gotten better recently.
Oh, and to re-rail the thread, I haven't had inklings of suicide since high school, and then, no more than your average flannel wearing nirvana listener at the time. I'd like to say I'm not afraid of death, but I'm pretty terrified of it.

He will probably want to fuck it then.
LOL!L!

Calling fabfunk a creepy fucking psychopath never goes out of style.

It's the little black dress of the CHUD boards!

It's probably not a good idea to use 'beating a dead horse' in relation to Fabfunk.